After a month, I think I am finally making my peace with the situation.
I've moved past the anger. And yes, there was a lot of anger in those first few days.
I'm learning how to do nothing. After working for 12 years and never taking a real vacation, it seems like this phase of unemployment is about learning how to relax. Maybe this was a funny way to learn the lesson. I know now that I enjoy time just spending moments with my husband. I'm reminded daily of why we (while some thought it was an unlikely pairing) are together.
In this peace, I can know tackle the question, what do I really want to be when I grow up?
In the meantime, we have also learned that there is a great reason to be in this state as opposed to where we were - the 2nd highest unemployment benefit in the nation.
I guess it's the small things, right?